it just hurts me so much that among our group of friends, i only got the "passing rate" and their grades are above passing.
i felt that it was so unfair when in fact we had the same answer though i never blamed them. i wanted to pass but not just "pass". i held a grieving heart within me when one of the subjects i'm taking is below passing and the other one is just "passing". there's just things i am not good at and
i understand it. i am not perfect, yes, but why fail ?.
There came a time when i thought of stopping from going to my class.
i thought of it because it only makes me cry. i don't understand why im getting through
this emotional side of me.
i am deeply hurt, but why ? i have so much to live for! it's not the end of the world
and i am not the only one who carries the most burden.
if you'll tell me that, then i'll answer you this :
because i feel weak. My optimism in life decreases. I have been through so much sorrows and
pain and the only thing that could push through the poverty i am in is my STUDIES non
other than that.
i don't have a problem in my lovelife for i know i am being loved unconditionally
by the people around me.. it's just that .. i can't bear it if it's my grade.
i think i am being cursed but i have to think again.. because i know i am not.
