i didn't want to .. but i did .

i could not help myself from crying this hard inside my classroom while we were having a class.

it just hurts me so much that among our group of friends, i only got the "passing rate" and their grades are above passing.

i felt that it was so unfair when in fact we had the same answer though i never blamed them. i wanted to pass but not just "pass". i held a grieving heart within me when one of the subjects i'm taking is below passing and the other one is just "passing". there's just things i am not good at and

i understand it. i am not perfect, yes, but why fail ?.

There came a time when i thought of stopping from going to my class.

i thought of it because it only makes me cry. i don't understand why im getting through

this emotional side of me.

i am deeply hurt, but why ? i have so much to live for! it's not the end of the world

and i am not the only one who carries the most burden.

if you'll tell me that, then i'll answer you this :

because i feel weak. My optimism in life decreases. I have been through so much sorrows and

pain and the only thing that could push through the poverty i am in is my STUDIES non

other than that.

i don't have a problem in my lovelife for i know i am being loved unconditionally

by the people around me.. it's just that .. i can't bear it if it's my grade.

i think i am being cursed but i have to think again.. because i know i am not.

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i am a student in a particular school here in Malaybalay City Bukidnon. I am in College and is taking up the course BACHELOR of SCIENCE in INFORMATION TECHNOLOGY. i am in my third year and is still hoping to pass for my fourth year.

My course is a very difficult course. In a year we have 2 semester. In each semester it consist of at most 11 subjects which carries 32 units in our study load and in which every year

i should pass all my subjects at a certain grade (esp. for my MAJOR SUBJECTS) for me to proceed the course. I have been struggling for 4 semester already and now i am hoping to pass this 5th semester.

i always feel sad whenever i get low grades when i know i could still get though not perfect but even higher grades. It kills me inside thinking that i could not posses the *knowledge* in times when i needed it. i feel insecure of not making it rather one of the lists who were on top. I am a very thankful child . i even thank small blessings for i know that it could somehow have an impact in my life but there are still times that i doubt it and i just don't know why. i am indeed a very sensitive when it comes to measurement of knowledge. i know i am not the "GENIUS" student who doesn't need to study in order to answer it all. I'm just an average student who knows something but not everything. what i am trying to say here is that i just couldn't accept the fact that when i fail it seems to punch me in the heart though i know i am not that genius . Everybody has his/her potentials and skills, but mine just hibernates. i don't know when it shows up and practically it shows up when i less need it.

i wanted to be something better!! i don't go to the extent of being perfect but at least, better.

all i ask for myself is flexibility that could manage any subjects encountered. i don't asked to be the top in the class but rather be the better passer.

i am willing to try again but my motivation lacks inspiration. i need to be inspired and be motivated at the same time to somehow start all over again.

in the past years of struggling, my classmates saw me LAUGH,CRY,get ANGRY, get DISAPPOINTED, MAD , SAD, LONELY, INSPIRED, and IN LOVE, well, i luckily get over my problems. Now, i don't know what to say because i am really tired of trying but still failing.

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